free! :)

today, i woke up charmed. the magic moment of last night was liberating. doors closed but windows have opened. life can be really so exciting. i love the way it conquers me and frees me at the same time. i am high! :)

i find myself always going back to the one i truly love.. i'm going to be okay. i know i am..

deja vu..

i did the most daring thing again... and it scared me.. i must only have missed the way i was.. as early as now, i know i should stop before the situation gets even worse.. the same words, the same actions, the same scenario.. it's all the same.. a feeling of deja vu.. and for whatever reason, it scared me to death.. i need my space.. i need more time.. otherwise...

:(

darn, i'm missing you so much tonight. But yeah, I'll give you your space. i just really hope you come back..

I miss You

I’ve been feeling this emptiness for sometime
Trying make do
But my world has been so crazy
Living without you
I’m a man not ashamed to admit my faults
Now that I know
But the only thing that matters now
I should have never let you go
So every night before I go to sleep, I pray
That the lord would someday some how
Send you back my way

Baby I miss you
I need to be back in your arms
I’ve never stopped loving you
My heart is where you belong
Baby I miss you
Before heaven and earth pass away
Lord please show me what to do
Tell me what to say
Cause we’ve come to far to let it slip away
Ooooh we’ve come to far to let it slip away

Couldn’t understand many things in my life
And what you meant to me
Now I’m prepared to be everything that a man is suppose to be
I don’t wanna be alone no more
So then my heart can take it
That weeks have past
Since you’ve been gone
That I’ve thought that I could make it
Oh baby
So every night before I go to sleep, I pray
That the lord would one day somehow
Bring you back my way

Baby I miss you
I need to be back in your arms
I’ve never stopped loving you
My heart is where you belong
Baby I miss you
Before heaven and earth pass away
Lord please show me what to do
Tell me what to say
Cause we’ve come to far to let it slip away
Cause we’ve come to far to let it slip away
Baby don’t know what else to say or do
Its hard to get through every night and everyday
Knowing I had you walk away
Its killing me inside
Feeling so strong I can’t hide
So lord help me get through trying times
I’ll do anything to have you back in my life

Baby I miss you
I need to be back in your arms
I’ve never stopped loving you
My heart is where you belong
Baby I miss you
Before heaven and earth pass away
Lord please show me what to do
Tell me what to say
Cause we’ve come to far to let it

Baby I miss you
I need to be back in your arms
I’ve never stopped loving you
My heart is where you belong
Baby I miss you
Before heaven and earth pass away
Lord please show me what to do
Tell me what to say
Cause we’ve come to far to let it
Baby I miss you

on september 10, 2010,Friday, 22:48...

this time.. i'm going to respect you and what you chose to do. pero gusto ko lang sana malaman mo na moving away and staying passive resolves nothing. communication is the key. masama loob ko how you handle our separation, to begin with, di ko alam kung ano naging kasalanan ko to deserve your indifference again. i might have openly told you how i feel about you pero just so you know, wala ako pinagsisisihan and it did not make me less of a person in any way.

i have so many good memories of you and it'll stay here no matter what.

i'm sorry for whatever hurt i might have caused you.

and.. i loved you just the way you are..

ingat ka. 'till we meet again..


Nina

gone a long way…

gone a long way…

it's over now.. (09.05.10)

You, you turned and walked away
I didn't know what to say
I close my eyes to hide
The pain I felt inside
I could never understand
How love went out of hand
And now, there's nothing I can do


Though the feeling hasn't passed
Sad to say our love didn't last
Please don't ask me to pretend
Cause to know it's over

When I'm done forgetting you
You can say what you wanna do
Please don't ask me to pretend
Cause I know it's over now

Now, I'm left here all alone
A heart without a home
How will I ever find
The love I left behind
Once the days were ours to share
Now you don't even care
And there's still nothing I can do