Saturday, October 29, 2011
The Strength surviving all Hurts..
Whoa! It's been four months since my last post.. A lot has changed. Major turnaround has already happened for the last four months.. Nonetheless, the roller coaster ride still continued.
The person I was referring to in my last post is gone. He chose to leave as he's forced to do so after I pushed him away. It was for the better.
I shut down and met another guy-- a trader, who unconsciously helped me become a much better person. His presence cushioned the hurt I felt when the guy I used to be dating left. Again, the core of strength within me survived all hurts.
On October 6, I committed with John. I accepted him again and gave things a chance. We were okay but not for long.
A week after, the circumstances came between us tearing us apart. John is so scared to get attached with anyone. He feels that committing would only occupy his personal space and leave him no room to be free. He has issues. The thought of losing himself while in a relationship freaks him out.. He left.
A few days after, he came back committing with me again. I accepted him with open arms. It went well.. temporarily..
Today, October 30 (also exactly 2 years ago when he left for the States leaving me with nothing), he left me again and told me that he's seeing someone else.. Same issues, same reasons..
The person I was referring to in my last post is gone. He chose to leave as he's forced to do so after I pushed him away. It was for the better.
I shut down and met another guy-- a trader, who unconsciously helped me become a much better person. His presence cushioned the hurt I felt when the guy I used to be dating left. Again, the core of strength within me survived all hurts.
On October 6, I committed with John. I accepted him again and gave things a chance. We were okay but not for long.
A week after, the circumstances came between us tearing us apart. John is so scared to get attached with anyone. He feels that committing would only occupy his personal space and leave him no room to be free. He has issues. The thought of losing himself while in a relationship freaks him out.. He left.
A few days after, he came back committing with me again. I accepted him with open arms. It went well.. temporarily..
Today, October 30 (also exactly 2 years ago when he left for the States leaving me with nothing), he left me again and told me that he's seeing someone else.. Same issues, same reasons..
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