Thank You

You have been patient, understanding, and forgiving for the last nine months and for those same number of months I'm struggling.. i dipped into another relationship with a blurry prospect. Nonetheless, despite the weariness and negativities we go through as we struggle to have a better relationship, I thank you for keeping up with me. Thank you for cushioning my sanity. Thank you for staying with me as I try my best to become a better person. Thank you for holding on as I'm still a work in progress. My growth is heavily slow but thank you for always putting up with me. Thank you for holding my hands tight everytime I'm in the verge of insanity...

Rain, rain, don't go away

I prayed for God to give me you at the Chapel of the Eucharistic Christ last night during the anticipated mass. However, I am feeling otherwise now.. The rain is making me feel nostalgic and free at the same time. I feel liberated.

Have I moved on? God, I hope so.. ;)

My Life Begins Now

Not a Single Tear

Today marks the day when i would no longer allow a single tear to fall from my eyes again because of you. Never again.

Has the door finally closed at me?

Fingers-crossed. I hope it's all over. I wish that I could finally move on. I am hurting but giving it a few months, probably, everything would come to an end. I miss him and I love him so much but life is setting a different pace for me-- to turn around, take another route, and find new doors to open...

Quarter of a Turn More

It has been a long time since I last wrote a thing in my blog. And for what seemed to be an eternity, my life, the kind of life I have been living for the last year or two, has finally shifted two hundred seventy degrees,waiting for it to move quarter of a turn more. In the past weeks, it feels like I have just started my year..

Looking back, Y2010 was a tough year for me. It was an intense year-- full of surprises; people left; new ones came; and, old ones, people I knew way back my frizzy-hair days, reunited. My life was everything in between. I valued nobody else but Myself. I received too much of an attention from new and old friends and as the year progressed, I craved for more. It made me feel more important than ever but insecure at the same time.

As I enjoy every bit of what life offered me, I drowned. The narcissism in me was a quicksand. My insecurities and sense of omnipotence overpowered my conscience and morality, as well as my compassion for the people surrounding me. I lost touch with reality. I lost control. The world revolved around nobody but ME.

I refuse to account the number of people I have hurt as I feed my ego with that false sense of superiority.

A shattering incident during the first quarter of 2011 has to unfold to push me grounded, to shake me, and to shatter the thick glass of my bogus self.

2010 is an all-important year for me because I learned too much the hard way. It taught me to be more responsible, considerate, controlled and composed. Moreso, it gave me the virtue of Temperance. My emotions pushed back, while logic makes its way at the forefront.

I am bruised, again.. but how deep I fell doesn't matter now, what matters is how high I bounced back.

A quarter of a turn more and I'm back on track...

Say Goodbye