i miss you..

so mad at you

Withered..

Two years have gone by and finally I have decided to move on... I was in a roller coaster ride for the last two years in my life and in a blink of an eye before 2010 ended, I finally had the guts to let go of the feelings which should have been long gone..

I waited long enough and John must never blame me for leaving because I had been there for him with no apparent reason to.

It took me some time to realize that there was nothing to ever hold on to. I exerted more than a tolerable effort just to stick with the feelings and love I have for him which remained unrequited despite the time spent.

It's easier to leave him now and move forward as I start the new year right.

I am hurt but will never ever be regretful as I decide to let go for I have loved him in many ways and freely gave it more than what he truly deserves.

He's now another fragment of my past, a happy and sad thought which will always have a special spot in my heart.

Thank you for all the memories. Thank you for opening my heart and showing me how it feels to fall inlove again. Thank you for the few wonderful moments my heart will live by.

As I move forward and leave the past behind, I want you to know that you would remain to be a happy memory-- one that I will cherish forever..

our third chance on love..

thank you Lord for the wonderful feeling I have been experiencing eversince John came back into my life a couple of days ago. I promise to take care of this relationship and change my old ways. This is our third chance on love and I would no longer allow anything or anyone come against our way. I would like to be with him and love him for the rest of my life.... I love him and misses him so much...

When you should grab something, grab it. When you should let go, let go.

I have seized the moment and now learning to let go. No regrets.

Chapel of the Eucharistic Lord, 10/16/2010

God said "Nina, don't be afraid to LIVE, LOVE, and LAUGH. I will be here when you stumble, I will catch you fall."
I was like "Lord, are you sure about that? you know how much I'm capable of doing everytime I seize the moment".
Persistently He said "Go ahead, I am here, I will never leave you, I know your capacity in getting back on your feet everytime you fall flat on your face".

free! :)

today, i woke up charmed. the magic moment of last night was liberating. doors closed but windows have opened. life can be really so exciting. i love the way it conquers me and frees me at the same time. i am high! :)