Though the feelings hasn't passed, sad to say our love didn't last..
Please don't ask me to pretend but It's over.
When I'm done forgetting you,
Please don't ask me to pretend,
Cause it's over now...
Friday, December 30, 2011
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Monday, October 31, 2011
No More Turning Tables. 10302011
I can't keep up with your turning tables. Under your thumb I can't breathe. So I won't let you go close enough to hurt me, I won't let you go and just desert me. I can't give you what you think you gave me. I've got to say Goodbye to Turning Tables.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
The Strength surviving all Hurts..
Whoa! It's been four months since my last post.. A lot has changed. Major turnaround has already happened for the last four months.. Nonetheless, the roller coaster ride still continued.
The person I was referring to in my last post is gone. He chose to leave as he's forced to do so after I pushed him away. It was for the better.
I shut down and met another guy-- a trader, who unconsciously helped me become a much better person. His presence cushioned the hurt I felt when the guy I used to be dating left. Again, the core of strength within me survived all hurts.
On October 6, I committed with John. I accepted him again and gave things a chance. We were okay but not for long.
A week after, the circumstances came between us tearing us apart. John is so scared to get attached with anyone. He feels that committing would only occupy his personal space and leave him no room to be free. He has issues. The thought of losing himself while in a relationship freaks him out.. He left.
A few days after, he came back committing with me again. I accepted him with open arms. It went well.. temporarily..
Today, October 30 (also exactly 2 years ago when he left for the States leaving me with nothing), he left me again and told me that he's seeing someone else.. Same issues, same reasons..
The person I was referring to in my last post is gone. He chose to leave as he's forced to do so after I pushed him away. It was for the better.
I shut down and met another guy-- a trader, who unconsciously helped me become a much better person. His presence cushioned the hurt I felt when the guy I used to be dating left. Again, the core of strength within me survived all hurts.
On October 6, I committed with John. I accepted him again and gave things a chance. We were okay but not for long.
A week after, the circumstances came between us tearing us apart. John is so scared to get attached with anyone. He feels that committing would only occupy his personal space and leave him no room to be free. He has issues. The thought of losing himself while in a relationship freaks him out.. He left.
A few days after, he came back committing with me again. I accepted him with open arms. It went well.. temporarily..
Today, October 30 (also exactly 2 years ago when he left for the States leaving me with nothing), he left me again and told me that he's seeing someone else.. Same issues, same reasons..
Friday, June 24, 2011
Thank You
You have been patient, understanding, and forgiving for the last nine months and for those same number of months I'm struggling.. i dipped into another relationship with a blurry prospect. Nonetheless, despite the weariness and negativities we go through as we struggle to have a better relationship, I thank you for keeping up with me. Thank you for cushioning my sanity. Thank you for staying with me as I try my best to become a better person. Thank you for holding on as I'm still a work in progress. My growth is heavily slow but thank you for always putting up with me. Thank you for holding my hands tight everytime I'm in the verge of insanity...
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Rain, rain, don't go away
I prayed for God to give me you at the Chapel of the Eucharistic Christ last night during the anticipated mass. However, I am feeling otherwise now.. The rain is making me feel nostalgic and free at the same time. I feel liberated.
Have I moved on? God, I hope so.. ;)
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